Black Vs White

I have money problem. I think I have mentioned that like a thousand million times.

I have problems in finance management. And it's getting really bad. Really really bad. Especially in Summer. And I am not proud to admit it, but I have to. It's getting really bad. I think I really need help.

I KNOW I have this problem. Ever since I started working after Form 5, I spent away half of my income most of the times. And I think it has since became a habit for me to spend, even now, without income. Except for the JPA allowance.

I really really need help.

I can't go on like this. Dad just reprimanded me on YM. I know I know. I DO realise and feel bad each time I have to ask for cash from my dad. I feel bad all the time, but I don't know HOW and WHERE all my money went. It feels like a sickness I can't cure. Omg.

*shoots myself*

I need to do something about it. It won't do me any good for my future, if I keep spending off my allowances like that. It's bad.

I've counted. If I only spend RM4 on each meal, plus grocery shopping, plus topping up my handphone credit, plus the dobi, I can spend only less than RM400 every month. If I dine at Cemara Cafe every evening, it'll be less than RM 4 per meal, which is even better! Great, that's a headstart. I desperately need to monitor my finance.

Oh gosh. I feel so emo blogging about it.

For this two months, I am just going to have to rely on roti canai everyday. Still have a Genting trip to go. =(
I mean, I do want to go, and I just can't pull out now so I'll just have to ikat perut for a few months until the next time JPA bank in some money. I'll even have to put off that idea of going ice-skating.

Don't you feel sad for me? I feel pathetic lor. *sigh*

Why I like that one???