Black Vs White

The typical scenario of girls meeting cockroaches.

I was silently doing my Calculus, calmly, trying not to explode due to frustration. The volume of the music was just right.

Just outside my room, in the living hall, there were 5 girls sitting together on the floor, apparently doing some discussion. Among them was Sanddy, and I could hear her stylish and louder than normal laughter erupting from time to time. XD And then there was Alicia, my other housemate as well.

As the world seemed so peaceful, except for the laughters that constantly erupted, suddenly..

Okay I promised to blog about this when my mood improves. It has improved. Sorry for being an emotional wreck. I was stupid okay what the heck. Forget it. I am no longer depressed nor pissed off. Yea I feel stupid now.

Oh what the heck. Let's move on.

It has indeed been a hectic hectic week. Not to mention a terrible horrible week.

*catch a breath*

Okayy.... A recap of what we had this week.

We had, by far the worst (okay, at least only for me) Calculus test. All I can say is, I think I'm gonna get at the most a C. So much for the Calculus Marathon during the entire weekend.

But...

*drumrolls*

Yuinyi had a dream come true!

Taddaaaa!! Yuinyi finally get to dress up like a pirate! YAYYYYYY! XD

It is the World Indulgence Week, and we the ATU students had a parade with the theme Hollywood movies. So, Yuinyi who wanted to be a pirate ever since Form 5 when she saw some students dressing up as pirates and thought that they were REALLY cool, suggested Irvine to do Pirates of the Carribean.

Everyone agreed, and...

Here's Pirates of Irvine! =P

We met some bumble bees on the way to conquer the world. (wait, pirates conquer the world one meh?)

Zorro came along and stole the girl's hearts. Alongside with Superman and the Incredible Hulk. =)

Then we had a duel with Harry Potter, who ended up sweeping the floor with his Nimbus 2008 broom.
It's Hogwarts assembly. Or is it the DA meeting?? *gasp*

We even rescued a princess!

And travel back to the Stone Age to meet Mr Flintstone. *winks*

At the final stage, we went up against the horrifying Count Dracula!! Oh FYI, this Mr Horrifying here can't speak. =P

To think that I missed the part where all the groups performed because our group was the LAST. I could have killed myself, because I DID NOT GET TO SEE MY NANNY DANCE!!! Argh. This is so frustrating.

Next up, we had the World's Idol which was well.. All I can say is, we lack of singers.

Sometimes I miss dear Jyi's voice which always melts my heart. *winks*

But, although we lack of singers, we do have some really cool drummers!!

Shah, from my class, was beyond cool. *swoons* (*points* the one in pink!)

I knew he is a drummer, and I've always loved drummers, but I never thought he'd be SO freaking cool!

And there's another guy in my class, Jamal who sang the song - Iforgotthetitle - he was. super. super. cool.

I didn't know there's a singer in my class!

Now I'm starting to think the guys in my class are cool. Okay SOME of them. XD

Okay I know the pics ain't clear but it was a freaking 2 megapix camera phone, so stop complaining wth Shah is cool fullstop. =P

However, the best singer was probably the girl from Ausmat and I don't know her name.

On Tuesday, I was already sick. Headache. headache. headache. My head was throbbing terribly. Quite. =P

How not to have headache when I'm constantly being bullied? Manford. Mei Yueh. Hafidz. And the latest who is probably infected with the deadly Manford disease (or so he claimed ) - Sheng Kai.

Remember I had a post last year in which I thanked everyone - including Sheng Kai for being such a good senior? You know what, I take my words back. He is a MEAN senior! XD

Alright, enough digression and my miserable life.

Wednesday, dodgeball!

And guess what? We had Hitz.fm here in Intec!! How cool is that?! I wanted to get some freebies but, oh well.. nevermind. I miss hunting down the cruisers when they came to Melaka. =P

I gotta say I had plenty of fun. I mean, it's my first time playing dodgeball.

We lost, but we had fun. =)

Then, there's the Halloween Night.

What is Halloween without some cute carved pumpkins?

I'm a goth. I had a tattoo on my hand (wished it was a real one =P) and yes I am a goth.

Sheng Kai thinks he looks scary. We just gotta disagree. Don't you think he looks cuter than he is scary?

There's the Death God! *Bankai!!!*

And the Masquerade Girl, ain't she pretty?

Of course, who is our nanny? Mr. Sweeney Todd!

The Pontianak who ate the baby. I think she's cool. =)

And lastly, 'The World Is A Concerto' organised by CATS.

The crowd was fantastic, it was fullhouse, the performances were okay.

Doralin finally found her ears again.

I love how Pison looked that night tho. He must be the best looking step dancer of the night. XD (Oh Pison, are you flying in the air already?)

And Kent Yee, I gotta admit his dance was great. And don't you think he's just so freaking thin and fair and looks more like a girl?

So much happened in a week.

So, it all ends great, I love and totally hate the entire week but everyone lives happily ever after.

I hope the same goes for me. XD

This is a happy post


because


it's my DAD's birthday!

*smiles*

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

and before I forgot,

Congratulations Mei Yueh, for getting into your dream school! =) I'm happy for you, although it means I'll be left alone here. XD I can survive, babe. *grins*

Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught
And in pain without anyone
When we keep praying out
To be safe
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find you way home
you can get there alone it's okay
once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
Once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face
And should they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stand tall and say
Yeah yeah yeahhhh

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I'll live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain

Oh yes, you can
You’re gonna make it through the rain.

I really need that. I'm so tired. So many times I've asked myself, "Can I just give up?"

Yet I know, giving up is not an option.

I really hope I can make it through the rain.

I have to say, I am one freaking hell of a lucky girl.

To those residents of Cemara/Akasia, you've probably heard of the riot that happened just this Tuesday itself. It is amazing that I didn't know about it until today.

The thing is, I was there. But I left just minutes before the whole incident happened. MINUTES. It gives me the shudders.

People with knives and parangs. Throwing chairs around. Beating people up. Hurting a man with a motorbike. Blood splattered. Glass broken. Fear. Anger. Madness.

Can you imagine that?

And I left the stall just MINUTES before it all happened. The amazing thing is, I didn't even hear a damn thing. Not a sound. Probably there were some noises, but I was too engrossed in Calculus or Chemistry?

Right now, Calculus and Chemistry seem like the most trivial thing on earth.

What if I had died? What if Hafidz did not leave early and we were there chatting happily and enjoying our French Fries and suddenly my head was chopped off and rolled off onto the road? What if the fries came a few minutes later? I could have died!

Omg do you have any freaking idea how scary that is???

Would I have given a damn about Calculus? Chemistry? Or my Info Speech?

Call it God's will or just my own good karma. I am not sure which, but one thing I know is, right now I am just so THANKFUL that I am sitting in front of my laptop typing, in the comfort of my room in Cemara alive and kicking.
Life has been the best for me so far. I might not be a top student or a filthy rich kid or the most succesful kid anyone can imagine, but I have achieved more than I could ask for.

I have a family that supports me - my dad and all his sacrifices, my two little sisters who tell me "I LOVE YOU" all the time in such a cute and funny way, and my brother who despite our arguments, always took care of me and gave me advices. I have a bunch of friends, who have always been there for me, although we were all busy and sometimes forget to keep in touch. I know they're always there. And the friends I have made in college. They are the ones that keep me going, when I almost gave up. Then I have my studies, however trivial it may seem. At least my studies are on the okay standard. I've worked hard for all that I have achieved today. My entire life of the past 17 years.

And I am just so thankful. You have no idea what's going through my mind right now.

What would be the first thing that come to my mind, if I were to die? I wouldn't know but definately not Chemistry, not Calculus, not my freaking low GPA or CGPA. I don't think you need more elaboration to inject into your mind just how grateful and thankful I am. It is beyond words I tell you.

Thank God (or karma) that no one from Cemara or Akasia was hurt, as there were some people from Akasia mamak-ing there like us that very night. My very own friend, witnessed that bloody scene.

I have never appreciated life more.

I probably won't be able to sleep tonight. Just having the whole incident played in my mind like a movie as I read through other's blogs gives me the creeps. Imagine if I was there myself. I would have fainted. Those who were there, I can't imagine their fear.

I love myself. I love my life. I am lucky and alive.

That's really worth celebrating.

The typical scenario of Yuinyi shopping at pasar malam.

Yuinyi : PakCik, tak mau chili ya.
The pakcik : Okay. Tak mau chili?
Yuinyi : Ah *nods*
The pakcik : Tak mau chili??
Yuinyi : AH. *nods nods*
The pakcik : Mau chili?
Yuinyi : ???
Yuinyi : (after thinking) AHH! *nodsnodsnods*

*the pakcik pours the chilli sauce*

Yuinyi : Eh, tak mau chilli. *puzzled*
The pakcik : Tadi kata mau???
Yuinyi : ..... Takpe lah, pakcik.

*sweat*

Let me justify myself. I HEARD the pakcik asking "tak mau chilli" THREE times. Even when he asked "mau chilli?".
The typical mangkuk. *smiles* That's me. But he was confusing me!!

Luckily he was kind enough to give me another set WITHOUT the chilli sauce. XD

But I really think the pakcik is out to bully the hell out of me. Oh yes I think he really is. *determined face*

Okay don't give me that look, (talks in a fast pace) I am just doing this for the sake of killing off some time and updating my blog because obviously nothing interesting has been happening to me for me to spill it out in my blog and I just feel like blogging but I don't know what to blog about. Fuh. *takes breath*

And for the sake of getting some blessings (as stated in the tag).
You think I believe meh? XD

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What's your favorite anime at the present time?
What do you think?? BLEACH!!!

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
To turn invisible (so that I can sneak up to you and poke you!) or to be able to jump like a jumper (that'll be cool) or to have powers like ICHIGO! Or to fly (so that I don't get caught in traffic jams).
Seriously, I don't know lah.

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
-Mei Yueh, because she is so creative and a future engineer and she comes from MELAKA
-Pison, so that we can watch and talk Bleach. XD
-Manny the funny nanny because he is my nanny and he is funny and he comes from MELAKA!!

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
INTEC, yes yes yes. =P

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Hmm.. don't think I wanna disclose it here. Keep guessing. XD

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yeps yeps yeps

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
Everyone and everything

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Shop shop shop and keep the rest in the bank.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Most probably not, but it depends. XD

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
She bullies me. She teases me. She comes from MELAKA!!

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Romantic. Funny. Treats me well (OF COURSE). Plays music. Cooks. Honest. Listens to me. Talks to me. Gives me my freedom. Will not be jealous easily. Shops with me. You still want me to list out? XD

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Bitchy. Arrogant. Acts smart.

13. What is your ambition?
Designer. Photographer. Architect? (tell me why I don't see the word engineering?)

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Point out

15. What is favourite sport?
Duh, SOFTBALL!

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
OH Yeessss!!!

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
Naughty

18. Find a word to describe yourself.
Cheeky. XD

19. Is there anything that u have done which u regret?
Yes, I mean, who doesn't?

20. Do you love your life at the moment?
I think so, yeah. =)

Who wants to do this, go ahead. I tag everyone. XD

Now, what shall I have for dinner? Hmm..

"Midvalley to Shah Alam? 5 hours? Are you sure??"

Yeaps yeaps. You saw what I wrote correctly. Nothing wrong with your eyes.

I went to Midvalley straight after class to meet dear Mei Mae who happens to come up to her house in Damansara this week. It started off very well. I reached there early, spent an hour at MPH before Mei Mae turned up. As usual, lunch, shopping, shopping, shopping.

Yes lots of shopping.

Books. Yeaps Yuinyi is BUYING books. Amazing.

A new jacket!

My favourite Tao Kae Noi seaweed! *grins*

Time to go back. That's when everything started going the wrong way. And that's was why I took five whole hours from Midvalley to Shah Alam.

First and foremost. MY fault.
We walked out of Midvalley towards the KTM station and saw the train already waiting. We ran, only to find out that it was already so packed and we couldn't possibly squeeze in. So we waited for the next one.

Then came the next train. Too packed again. Waited AGAIN for the next one because we are clearly gentle and lemah lembut girls who just don't push and squeeze and cause the discomfort of other people.

Third train. Cannot tahan already. Waited so long. Push lah! So we were sardinised. (Yuinyi's dictionary : sardinised - dihimpit-himpitkan seperti ikan sardin) And I told Mei Mae, "One stop away only, one stop."

It was then at the first stop that I realised that I took the wrong train. Instead of bringing us to KL Central, we were at some unknown place.

We boarded off, and had to wait for about an hour for the train back to KL Central.

*sigh*

I felt like banging my head against the wall for making such a silly mistake. You tell me, ain't I stupid?
I was feeling so miserable because I really didn't plan to go back when it's dark.

Secondly, THE KTM's FAULT
Yes. They are really lousy.

We reached KL Central in their forever slow-moving train and parted ways as Mei Mae had to take a monorail back to her place while I had to continue my journey in the KTM.

So I waited alone for about half an hour. The train arrived (delayed) and I boarded the train.
Yes! Got place to sit!
Took my seat and began reading my book.

Half an hour passed.

Train still not moving.

Apparently there was some problem with the operating system. We, the already frustrated passengers were asked to leave the train.

@!*%^$#

Great. Now what do I do?

I stood there waiting for about an hour before deciding to take the bus back to Shah Alam. I didn't want to (it seemed so dangerous) but I had no choice. It was already 9.15 pm. Do you have any idea how scared and lonely I felt? I really hated it.

THE BUS's fault
So I took the bus and when I was about to pay, the paying machine thingy sort of broke down. Gosh, could things get any worse? Luckily it sprang back to life and vomited out my ticket for me.

I reached Shah Alam at 10.30 pm, changed bus and finally, CEMARA!!! Just before it struck 11.
I've never appreciated Cemara 3/503 as much.

I suddenly love the comfort of my room. =)

Finally, YOUR fault.
Yes. Why is it your fault? Not all of you. Just those that have been calling me mangkuk. Because now I realised that I've become really really mangkuk. I don't think I was this blur back in Secondary School.

Yea, those who have been calling me mangkuk, you know who you are lah. XD

In conclusion, I'm feeling really tired and sleepy, so... ciaoz!!

"Worries. It happens to me ALL the time. I get worried because my friends bully me ALL the time, but when they bully me I get happy and forget about being worried as well. It's complicated and abstract."

-Quoted from Miss Yuinyi-

In other words, my friends make me "worried" and happy at the same time.

I'm so contradicting myself, I know. Sanddy and Hafidz can't seem to stop repeating my words to remind me that I contradicted myself.

I am so funny. =P

And by the way, my sister did okay for her SPM. So, good for her! I guess she's happy about it, so I am for her too. =) Congratulations, I'd say. I'll reward her later because I am such a good sister. =P

*******************************************************************************

We visited UMW for our Engineering Field Trip today.

I'm so disappointed because we couldn't go anywhere further. UMW is like 10 minutes away from INTEC! Even SACC mall is further. Gosh.

In case any of you ( I am sure MOST of you ) don't have any idea what UMW is, it's a company that deals with Toyota and stuff. Lots of cars and trucks and lorries and machines.

But still, it was fun.

At least the gallery is nice. =)

I really LOVE the way the pictures are arranged on the walls!

And this antique corner. It's my favourite!

Note: I didn't even realise everyone was like smiling at my camera phone! XD How nice. =P

Oh gosh.

I'm so anxious, did I tell you?
Overly anxious.
I don't remember feeling so anxious last year.

Exactly on this date last year, I was out partying with my friends. We even had a stay-over.
Then we went to school together and collected our results together.
I can't remember feeling nervous. Okay maybe I did, when I was in front of the school gate.

But not THIS nervous.

My sister is getting her results tomorrow. I'm anxious. I wanna know. I can't wait.
She'd better call me tomorrow after getting her results.
I probably won't be able to concentrate in class tomorrow.

*praying hard*

I really can't wait.
Good luck!!

Oh yes, a very huge CONGRATULATIONS to the seniors-seniors sekalian in Malacca High School who obtained excellent results for their STPM! (Especially to THAT cute funny senior!! No I won't tell you who!)

I heard there are 28 of them. I might not know the seniors well, but kenal muka also jadi lah! After all, some of them guided me through the orientation I attended during my one month in Malacca High School. I shall always remember THAT CUTE LENG CHAI senior who is damn freaking smart!! *sheepish grin*

So, I'm waiting for tomorrow!!

*gasp*


She's 19!

Not me! The girl with the short hair!

Happy Birthday Mei Mae! I did not forget!! Although you have not been keeping in touch with me. X(
Okay, we were all busy. (still...?!) I miss you lah, okay? XD

I have plenty to do, but I seem to be taking it easy. Can blog somemore.
You know what, I think I need a dose of stress now. *nodsnods*

Did I tell you softball is amazing? Yes it is. =)
Yeaps I love it to the core.

You know what, I don't know what's the purpose of my blog anymore. I'm just typing random stuff all the time. =P


Better start studying Speech Communication.
Ciaoz!!

Don't ask me who this is.

Don't ask. Just look at what the shirt says!!

I flunked my Calculus quiz today. *nodsnods* Really. My graph was totally wrong.

But you know what, I think I am finally getting a grip of myself. I didn't really get upset. Even though I am quite sure I didn't do well in Ethics and the previous Calculus test. Cause you know what, I don't think I wanna go crazy. I'd rather flunk all my tests and quizzes and whatnot but I 'd really like to stay sane and happy, thank you very much. =)

Besides, I'm not going for the Ivy Leagues, remember? *winks*

And come to think of it, I'm actually quite glad I did not apply (everyone else was asking me, WHY???). I'm starting to like it here actually. And I don't think I would be prepared to go so early. So you see, I was right with my decision. For once. =P

And, I am really happy today.