Black Vs White

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I should stop blogging because I am such a bimbo and through blogging I embarrass myself totally without even realising it! Now, who can be so stupid to not even realise that? No one else but me, yeah.

I should just run and hide.
Oh alright, I won't stop blogging but I'll definitely TRY to stop being so bimbotic.

Yeah, I will.

So, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to run off and bury my head in the ground. Or stab myself with knives and axes.

I know what you're thinking right now. OMG OMG OMG. YES I know I KNOW!!

I know you wanna have a peep!! What else can I say? I am so enjoying it!!! Don't be jealous. XD

Oh right, he's not the main star of the day.

HE is!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MACHA! *hugs*

'Ke yi gei wo yi ge wen ma?'

'BU KE YI!!!'

Poor guy, TOEFL on his birthday. XD Good luck okay? *winks*

Anyway I saw this poster at GSC Midvalley today. I vow I'll never get THIS depressed. Look at his expression, look at his eyes! He looked SO depressed. I never know one can look THIS depressed. To the extend that he is putting his head on pancakes!

If I ever do look like that, please do whack me okay? But I really doubt I will. Not with frisbee and taekwando and my new JAY DVD!!!

*runs off*

I used to hate it when I see people getting depressed all the time. It’s like, ‘Oh I’m suddenly so depressed for no reasons lah.” I used to think, “What the heck lah, there’re people whose situations are worse than yours.” And I used to think that these people are just plain pathetic.

I just realised that I am no different from the people who get depressed all the time.

You’ve seen the endless complain posts I have in my blog.

You’ve heard me whine all the time about Calculus and Chemistry.

Yes, I have been getting upset a lot this semester. I have to say that Irvine makes me uncomfortable. In Boston, I used to feel I belonged. Not in Irvine, no. If I tell you that I don’t hate it, then I am lying to you.

I don’t like being the only person in class who can’t seem to solve a simple Calculus question. I hate being the only one in class who hates Chemistry to the core. I hate it when everyone is asking each other whether they have completed the freaking Chemistry assignment that was just assigned the day before and I haven’t even printed it yet. And I hate it when everyone is discussing Calculus and I don’t know a single thing they’re talking about. I just don’t feel like a part of the class.

In short, I am just plain dumb.

I don’t deny that my time management is poor. I take 2 hours to study something that my classmates would probably take 1 hour to study. That’s why I’m sleeping at 3 or 4 each night. I am not proud of it either.

Sleepless nights. Endless assignments. Endless tests and quizzes. Sometimes I just feel like letting go of everything. I should just quit studying and go sell satay at the roadside. What the hell am I striving so hard for exactly? It’s not like I’m going for the Ivy Leagues. I don’t understand myself either.

Right now, everything just seems wrong. The person who used to make me laugh till my tears came rolling down and whom I could call and talk to when I was stressed over algebra and trigo last semester doesn’t even have anything to talk with me anymore.

I probably won’t ever want to talk about this again. I’m so tired complaining and making people hate me for it. I don’t think you wanna see my ugly crying face. I know it’s irritating seeing someone get depressed all the time.

I know you hate this. I hate this too. I hate myself for being so weak.

Sorry to anyone whom I’ve pulled a long face at the whole week. And if I’ve put on a fugly dark face (with a dark gloomy cloud hovering over my head) and not smile as sincerely when talking, sorry to whomever had to endure that.

Yes I’m a sad dumb girl.

That, is what I hope to be the end of whatever nonsense you have to hear from me.

I must be crazy to be blogging at this time. I have two tests and a quiz this week, and endless of assignments to be completed, mostly due this week and next week. I wonder when I'll ever get a break.


And I must also be crazy because despite being so busy busy busy, I can still go to the Lantern and Flora Festival at Banting on Saturday night (instead of staying at Cemara obediently to study and maybe catch some sleep) AND wake up as early as 6.30 to go play frisbee the very next day at Intec.


The Lantern and Flora Festival was REALLY nice.


Don't we look happy? =)

We reached back at Cemara at around 12 pm.
Then, the next day, Intec HAT!


6 games. Running up and down the field. It was dead tiring.
But I gotta say it's all worth it!! See Pison's blog.

I'm still waiting to get my free frisbee disc! Then I can play anytime I want. If I can find the time. X(


It has been such a busy and tiring weekend. So much for catching up with my sleep during the weekends.


Now I'll still have to burn the midnight oil for another week. Meaning, about 3 to 4 hours of sleep per day for a week.


I know I've wailed a lot of times on my blog, but I just gotta do it again.

*wails*

Happy Valentine's Day, all those lovey dovey couples out there!

Not forgetting all the single ones too!! Who says Vanlentine's only for dating couples? Being single rocks, yea? ^_^



Don't think I don't have a date!


I'm dating Calculus tonight!!



Because my test is freaking TOMORROW! *sobs*



No time to blog! Ciaoz!!

I took about TWO hours to solve three simple Calculus questions because I stupidly enough did not see that I have differentiate wrongly, something I have learnt in Form 5.

Yay. *clap clap clap*

MAKKAU.



By the way,



Happy Birthday Shirleen! *hugs*

I almost thought I can never get access to this page tonight.

One week holidays doesn't seem enough. It's ALWAYS not enough. I hardly get to rest at all.

And everyone gets sick after the break. Including me. X( At least I'm feeling a whole lot better now. Can play frisbee somemore. XD

Coming back here means study study study non-stop. No more breaks after this. *sigh* Why do we have to have tests and exams right after the break??!!

I am now on my bed, with Cotton beside me, my jacket somewhere on the bed, my Chemistry book lying open with my highlighter, pens and pencils all over the bed. My Calculus notes are at the corner of the bed, waiting for me to flip over them. Sigh.

Chemistry facts are very degil, refuse to get into my tiny brain.

Thursday TWO Chemistry quizzes, Friday Calculus TEST, and next week Chemistry TEST.

I've yet to watch Kung Fu Dunk and CJ7 and I am totally in love with the Jay Chou World Tour 2007 Concert DVD right now. I am so going to grab it!!! But looks like I can only watch the movies and get the DVD next weekend, or next next, or next next next, or next next next next, or okay you get the idea.


Sien betul!!!

I don't know what else to blog about, but I really feel like blogging. So,

fubbster@deviantart

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

Go get many many ang pows and share with me. *grins*

I think I complain a LOT. Oh yes I do.

When I have nothing to do during the two months holiday break that I could almost die, I complain. Now I have so much to do that I can almost die also. And I complain also.

When people bully me like mad, I complain.
Now this mangkuk and pinggan suddenly make a 180 degree change and start treating me like a princess. And yes, I complain somemore.

I sometimes don't understand myself. The things I do sometimes make me wanna bang my head against the wall and let it break into a hundred pieces, with blood and brains splattering all over.

Who agrees with me that I am a dumb bimbotic girl? I see a raise of hands. Thank you.

Anyway I seriously don't know how to find the time for all my work. I need to revise Calculus, Chemistry, and Intro to Engineering, all of which I haven't started revising yet. And my demonstrative speech outline. Plus all the CNY preparations. I don't even have much time for shopping. I'm telling you, I have no new clothes this year. NONE. Big Fat ZERO.

Yay.

I feel so miserable.

What does this remind you of?

*laughs*

My sister was doing this for some CNY dedication project in her school. The way she wrapped the oranges..

She's just so innocent sometimes. XD

Ahh.. finally back at home. Can relax already. XD

I've concluded that it's a VERY bad idea to take the town bus from Melaka Central back to my house.

I reached Melaka Central at 4.30 p.m. today and since my dad only ends work at 5.30 p.m. and there's no one to pick me up, I thought I might as well just take the town bus back home. So, I hopped onto the town bus and waited for some time before the bus started moving.

And this is what I hate about town buses. It always appears dirty and polluted. It's super crowded. It's hot. And the bus drivers are always so hot-tempered and rude and act as if we passengers owe them our lives or something. I'm not trying to stereotype but almost all the town bus drivers are like that. Almost. I just don't get it. Wouldn't it do them good to just welcome passengers with a big huge smile? And what's with that scornful look on their faces? *sigh*

So, back to my journey on the bus that sounded like it could break down any minute. The passengers boarded the bus and soon enough it was full and the rest had to stand. Then I turned and looked around and I see this girl with an empty seat beside her.

She had her bag on the empty seat. *applause*

How inconsiderate, I thought.

And then, the bus driver asked one lady who was standing to take a seat and this lady went and take a look at the apparently empty seat, only to walk back in front and tell the driver 'Dia letak beg kat situ.'

What the hell. How can this silly girl just act as if she did not notice this lady trying to find a seat? Some people just freaking don't understand that seats are for butts, not for your freaking bags. What a bimbo.

Anyway, the bus groaned, jerked and shook. And then I finally reached the bus stop somewhere outside my housing area. It was 6.00 p.m. already andI had to walk all the way from the bus stop to my house carrying one back pack filled with books (Calculus, Chemistry, Intro to Engineering), another sling bag filled with clothes, and a laptop. I could have just waited at the bus station for my dad to pick me up. It would have been a much smoother ride.*sigh*

Therefore, I'm telling myself, no more town busses for me.

I'm totally going to appreciate this holiday as much as possible. No more holidays after this until the next semester. X(

But then, we're having tests right after the holidays. How to enjoy, you tell me? So much for CNY. I have Calculus, Chemistry, and Intro to Engineering to study.

I can't wait for Summer Semester. Then can go watch movies and lepak everyday until I get bored. XD

Ethan was just telling me the other day to endure it for a while.

Who's Ethan you ask? My pimp!! It's his new name and I think it's really nice!

Persevering...