Black Vs White

No. No. NO. NO. NOOOO!!!

I'm fat fat fat fat fat fattttt!!

"Eh girl, so fat edi ah?"
"Wah... college life treating you good eh??"

*wails*

NO I REJECT THATTTT!!!

Presenting my flawless diet plan!!!

Jogging jogging!! Have late breakfast a.k.a brunch so I can skip lunch, frisbee frisbee, absolutely NO SUPPER, and anything that will make me look like a model!!! XD

Okay that's a bit over. =P

But..

I SHALL LOSE WEIGHT!!

Mark my words, fats. You'll be gone for good!! Muahahahahaha!!!

---> http://malaysiandisease.blogspot.com/ <---

Still working on it, but yeah, do pay a visit. XD

In the meantime, sorry to say my mood is going downhill. *slaps myself* I don't know, but I've been getting more mood swings than I should ever since Spring started.

Anyway, I'm going to catch up with that few episodes of Bleach that I've missed due to exams. =P And I realised I'm missing something in life. Drawing!! I've not done that for so long, I think my hands will shake if I start drawing again. =P

Oh I miss art classes!!!

*fireworks*
*dancing*
*singing*

Oh yes, celebrations!

Because FINALS IS DAMN OVER!!!!

This only means,

---> Movies, Field Trips (*grins*), Frisbee, Taekwando, SUMMER! And Yes, Sleep!

Oh in addition to that, my MAIN goal that I really have to achieve by the end of summer, I NEED TO SHED SOME FATS!! I've been eating so much during exam period and I got so bulat and when I look at the mirror I can't recognise who I see. Yes, it's that bad. So it means jogging, healthier food ( I'll find the healthiest one there is ), and less food!!

Okay okay, I'm very determined to achieve my goal. Although I have failed countless times. XD Give me moral support leh!

The guys are moving in to Cemara this Saturday!!! I'm so excited!! No, I am not obsessed with them, just that I'll have more frisbee mates, more Taekwando mates!! Yes yes yes yes!!!

....

I think I sound a bit overexcited. =P

Who cares? Finals is over! I'm done with Spring Semester 2008!!



Psst, The Forbidden Kingdom, bbbeeessstt!!!

The sun shines furiously down her back.

Gasping for air, she runs and runs.

Her feet, as if they have minds of their own, just keep going and going, one step after another, without fail. Her breathing becomes heavy, as she struggles to control them. Her lungs seem to be burning, yelling at her at full volume, telling her to stop. Once in a while, she was tempted to just stop running and walk. But she wants to go all the way till she can finally dash pass the ribbon of victory.

As much as she longs to be the first to reach the finishing line, she knows she is one of the weakest among the others. Even at the beginning, she felt inferior, she felt small, as if the whole world looked down on her with fierce glaring eyes. Everyone else were fit and looked as if they had been doing this for ages, while she is just a noob. She has only started taking up running a few months ago.

In fact, she never really liked running. She hates marathons. It has always been hard for her. She has difficulties trying to control her breathing. Sometimes, it causes her pain in the abdomen. Most of the times, she’d feel faint by the end of the race. She doesn’t know why she still keeps going on. She knew marathons are just not her thing. She was meant to do something else. She doesn’t know what she was thinking of when she signed the participation form. She hated it, but she felt that she needed to do it.

Most of the participants are already sprinting past her. She watches in silence and continues at her own pace.

It’s okay, just keep going on.


Then she falls. It must have been a rock that she failed to notice. Her knees start to bleed.

Sigh.

She looks in disappointment at her pathetic knee, covered in dirt and blood. She wants to give up. She’s tired, she’s exhausted, she’s sick of running. It seems like a never ending battle. She sits there, on the road for a moment and looks up at the sky.

She feels something wet on her cheek. A drop of rain lands on her cheeks. And another. Somehow, the bright sunny sky just moments ago is gone. It begins to rain and soon she is all wet. The rain pricks her knee, and her heart. Why is she so weak? She wants to cry. No one would know if she cried in the rain.

Hey, are you okay?

She looks up at the stranger. It is one of the runners.

Yes, yes I’m fine.

He helps her to her feet, smiles, and continues running after wishing her good luck.

Amazingly, all her disappointments are gone. A new hope is born within her. She’s not giving up just yet.

One fall is not going to put her down. One bloody knee is not stoping her from completing the race. She’s nearing the end of the race. This time, she’s going to run even faster. She’s going to catch up with the others. Even if it means catching up with them only at the finishing line. She knows her chances of winning against those people are very slim. But she is not giving up. She’ll make up for the time lost when she fell. She will reach the finishing line. It’s where her friends and family await her, waiting, just to cheer for her.

She can now see the finishing line. She can see her family, smiling at her. She can see her friends, waving at her. It feels so warm.


She is reaching. That’s what matters most.

Okay this is frustrating. I want to blog very badly (the last time I blogged was on the 8th?? It's the 12th already!) but there's freaking nothing for me to blog about. Heck, nothing interesting has been happening! Unless racing through time to try to cover as much Calculus, Chemistry, Engineering and assignments as I can is considered interesting. *rolls eyes*

I'm telling you the finals is in two weeks.TWO weeks. I can't wait for everything to be over so that I can sleep sleep sleep shop shop shop eat eat eat sleep sleep sleep for an entire week. Great I sound like a pig. NO I'm not.

This is really boring.
My life is B-O-R-I-N-G.

*slaps myself*

Okay it is not. Not Not Not.
But I am really feeling bored right now. Heeelpp meeee...~

*snaps fingers* Right, what do you think if I just tell you about my latest crush?


HAH!


I know you're nosy! There's no crush no crush no crush. Even if there is, it's not like I'm telling you. Unless its Mr. Calculus. Okay I think I'm a bit obsessed with Calculus. Yen Yi (see how his name is similar to mine??) commented that almost every single post in my blog never failed to mention Calculus.

Gosh, this is freaking wasting time. You really shouldn't be reading this.

You know, I don't know how I can feel BORED when I just realised that I have a test on Monday, plus another quiz and my speech presentation, all on Monday. Then I have my Progress Report presentation on Tuesday. *grins*

And speaking of speech presentation, it's giving me headaches. I don't know, but I used to think it was fun. *sigh*

Okay, since this is such a horrifyingly boring post, let me end this with a pic of St Patrick plus Halloween. =PPresentations can sometimes be fun. SOMETIMES. (notice that Kent Yee is actually SMILING?)

Omg I think I've just attained enlightenment. I so need to blog.

I was so tired studying for Chemistry. It was already 12 and I freaking have another chapter to go, plus my Progress Report which I have yet to remember what to say. I decided I needed a dose of fresh air.

So I grabbed my handphone, plugged in the earphone, walked out to the balcony and started flipping through all the different radio stations.

*gasp* I heard the Bleach song on Fly.fm.

Anyway that was out of topic.

I listened, I closed my eyes and I thought, and so much went through my mind.

Whoops. It suddenly struck me. I read Pison's blog. I read Mei Yueh's blog. I read my Nanny's blog. I read Elizabeth's blog. I read so many other blogs. It made me think.

And, and I realise. I realise that, that omg I am happy. XD

You know what, it's so complicated I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. LOL. I'm just so happy. I'm going to do what I want to do. Because I ain't competing with no one except myself. I don't need to be the best student or anything.

I don't know how to say it omg. The thing is, right now, I am going to do what I want to do and I don't really mind if I don't get full marks (or almost full marks) in my Chemistry test tomorrow because I have been studying it all night and omg I just realise what Nanny said makes complete sense because I've been doing my best all my life, studies isn't everything in life and hell, I don't even know why am I pushing myself so much. Omg omg omg. And I also realise that Mei Yueh is right because I am not dumb just because I can't do some Chemistry or Calculus question. I just take a longer time to understand some things. And Pison is right because there are different kinds of strength and I'm a strong strong girl even though I kinda cry out of the blue sometimes but oh what the heck I'm surviving till today. How come I never really realise all that? Gosh.

Someone slap me before I faint out of happiness. XD

I just hope it lasts. =P I need to keep reminding myself because for some reason I tend to forget.

Ignore the title.

So, Michelle commented that bloggers like me take pictures of almost every single thing I could get my hands on.

*ponders*

Come to think of it, ever since I started blogging, I've been making more use of my camera phone. Things around me started to look pretty and worth the space in my phone. Which is a good thing what. Or else, why did I buy a camera phone in the first place? See, i'm doing my phone justice. XD

And just to prove you wrong, Michelle, I am not posting any pictures I took last Saturday. =P It's not like I took many pictures that day. *grins*

Oh gosh, I miss the girls. Everyone is so busy nowadays we hardly get to catch up with each other. Each time we get together, it amazes me how different life in Shah Alam is compared to life in Melaka. =P


By the way, it's like the last three weeks of the semester and everything is suddenly very... erm heavy? I don't know but it's sort of driving me crazy. I have mentioned enough about the tests and quizzes and exams and assignments and presentations, I don't think I need to mention those crazy stuff anymore. It just keeps getting more, or so I feel. At one point, I started to lose track of all my tests and quizzes and presentations.

Gosh I just want this to end soon. I've been trying in vain to convince myself that it is okay to not achieve the best, just as long as I am doing all I can. I think I fail in persuasive speech - failing to persuade myself, that is.

But then again, when this semester ends, it'll be summer. Then when summer ends, everyone who is flying will stop coming to college. And suddenly so many people that I know of are leaving. People from my batch, the seniors. At one time, I actually started questioning myself again. What if I had applied? How does it feel like, being able to fly so soon?

Nah, I'm not changing my mind about what I decided. =)

Of course, I'm feeling sad that they're leaving. But then, you know what, I'll survive. Whatever it is, I'm going to survive. (I'm consoling myself what the heck =P) Even if I start crying more than I do. Hey, that's like a form of stress reliever okay.

I can get pretty crazy when I am emotional. Which is not very seldom. XD I'm not proud of it. But I am going to survive because, it's life and there's nothing else I can do but to move on. I'm not making myself miserable.

I definately will TRY not to. *grins*

Oh by the way, I'm a siao char bo. =)

4th April. 0404. It is a very special day.



You know why?


Because it's the day





The very special day





Of

Michelle!!