Black Vs White

I have to say, I am one freaking hell of a lucky girl.

To those residents of Cemara/Akasia, you've probably heard of the riot that happened just this Tuesday itself. It is amazing that I didn't know about it until today.

The thing is, I was there. But I left just minutes before the whole incident happened. MINUTES. It gives me the shudders.

People with knives and parangs. Throwing chairs around. Beating people up. Hurting a man with a motorbike. Blood splattered. Glass broken. Fear. Anger. Madness.

Can you imagine that?

And I left the stall just MINUTES before it all happened. The amazing thing is, I didn't even hear a damn thing. Not a sound. Probably there were some noises, but I was too engrossed in Calculus or Chemistry?

Right now, Calculus and Chemistry seem like the most trivial thing on earth.

What if I had died? What if Hafidz did not leave early and we were there chatting happily and enjoying our French Fries and suddenly my head was chopped off and rolled off onto the road? What if the fries came a few minutes later? I could have died!

Omg do you have any freaking idea how scary that is???

Would I have given a damn about Calculus? Chemistry? Or my Info Speech?

Call it God's will or just my own good karma. I am not sure which, but one thing I know is, right now I am just so THANKFUL that I am sitting in front of my laptop typing, in the comfort of my room in Cemara alive and kicking.
Life has been the best for me so far. I might not be a top student or a filthy rich kid or the most succesful kid anyone can imagine, but I have achieved more than I could ask for.

I have a family that supports me - my dad and all his sacrifices, my two little sisters who tell me "I LOVE YOU" all the time in such a cute and funny way, and my brother who despite our arguments, always took care of me and gave me advices. I have a bunch of friends, who have always been there for me, although we were all busy and sometimes forget to keep in touch. I know they're always there. And the friends I have made in college. They are the ones that keep me going, when I almost gave up. Then I have my studies, however trivial it may seem. At least my studies are on the okay standard. I've worked hard for all that I have achieved today. My entire life of the past 17 years.

And I am just so thankful. You have no idea what's going through my mind right now.

What would be the first thing that come to my mind, if I were to die? I wouldn't know but definately not Chemistry, not Calculus, not my freaking low GPA or CGPA. I don't think you need more elaboration to inject into your mind just how grateful and thankful I am. It is beyond words I tell you.

Thank God (or karma) that no one from Cemara or Akasia was hurt, as there were some people from Akasia mamak-ing there like us that very night. My very own friend, witnessed that bloody scene.

I have never appreciated life more.

I probably won't be able to sleep tonight. Just having the whole incident played in my mind like a movie as I read through other's blogs gives me the creeps. Imagine if I was there myself. I would have fainted. Those who were there, I can't imagine their fear.

I love myself. I love my life. I am lucky and alive.

That's really worth celebrating.