Black Vs White

Seriously. I should never ever have any form of breakfast at all before a game. No, actually, I should just skip breakfast unless I'm hungry, not only before a game, but everyday. =.= Now I feel like puking. No no, actually I felt like puking from this morning right after I finished breakfast till now. I didn't even finish half of my RM 6.30 lunch despite the fact that I was starving! Ahh, what a waste. Now I'm hungry. But I feel like puking. *bengang*

Rafi should really start having roti canai-s in the afternoon so that people like me don't have to waste money on expensive nasi. Seriously!

Mully Day 2. How was the game? We lost both games - against El Ninos and KBU.

Well, Hazwan was practically shouting at everyone of us. Being the new girl, and the weakest in the team, I don't really have much to say, but I think we should have won against El Ninos at least. *sigh*

As for myself, I still have so much to work on...!! *shrinks into the size of an ant*
Next week's is against Oops again, and Satu Lagi (I think).

And and and, I'm so gonna stay over at someone else's place (or else I'll REALLY be alone in Cemara) after the game (Jas, or Van, or Shir) because they're all gonna be here and we're gonna go shoppiiiiinnnnggg!! (provided I have roti kosong every day till next Saturday! XD)

Right now, I think I should get my nap. =P And will that freaking cold stop irritating me?? (annoying lil itchy throat and runny nose)


P/S: Mission2 accomplished! LOL

When it's all quiet again. I still hear noises downstairs lol.

And so I settled down and had my lunch here. Right now, I'm happily blogging away at KFC. Wahahaha.

I just don't feel like I'm in Shah Alam at all. It's so.. NOISY. LIVELY. LOL

I see kids running around in KFC. It used to be so empty. I see more Chinese than I usually do. I mean, we hardly see Chinese working adults flocking around here for lunch.

WHAT HAPPENED?

Anyway, I really hope the Internet connection in Cemara gets well soon. I need you!!! Can you believe I sat in front of my laptop for half an hour thinking of what to do when I woke up this morning and I can't connect to the Internet?

So please, don't leave me!! XD

Ahhh~

Today's pretty enjoyable!

First of all, I am (once again) back in Cemara, just arrived this morning. Since I have pretty much nothing to do (except my uni app) I agreed to go to the pickup at KBU.

It took us quite long to reach our destination. We actually waited for almost an hour at Section 18 for the bus. Then missed the LRT (but that wasn't much of a problem since LRT are fast unlike KTM). Then we took a taxi and the taxi driver thought he heard us saying KDU so we arrived at KDU before going to KBU. =.= And it was raining, hence the traffic jam (which delayed us even more).

So we played in the rain. And got wet. My bags got wet as well. *wails* So basically right now I'm drying everything I can in the living room. LOL

Anyway those people are really friendly. We had dinner together. ^_^ AND I GOT MY dream came true MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!! *shh*

So now I know who is Kelvian, Jessica, Ji Mi, and some other people i forgot their names. And Ji Mi offered to drive us back to the bus stop where we waited for the RapidKL to pick us up. But we sort of got lost and plus RapidKL was slow, so we finally arrived safe and sound in Cemara at I think about 11. At least the guards didn't stop us. XD

Too bad we didn't take any pictures. *pouts*

It was all very fun! At least I didn't spend my day rotting again!



Mood : Tired but happy *huge grin*

"Mummy, balloons! balloons!!!!"

She couldn't help smiling. In that 7 year old girl, she saw herself, years back.

She used to love going to funfairs. Her favorite was always the merry-go-round. When a funfair’s in town, nothing else seemed more important. Just the joy and happiness of living a carefree life. Seeing people laugh, and laughing together even at the silliest thing. She smiled and laughed a lot back then. She forgave and forgot so easily. Well, she was after all, only 7.

She grew up a happy kid. She studied hard, graduated, fell in love and eventually got married.

Three years ago, cancer took her husband away. She was at lost. She cried, stayed at home all day, and stopped answering the phone calls. One day, she woke up and decided to do something with her life. She went back to work, and worked very hard. She told herself she’ll be a strong successful career woman. Her dreams were her inspiration. She continued working towards that goal, never stopping to look at anything else. Not at the beautiful flowers by the roadside, the admiration in the eyes of her little brother when she showed him her graduation certificate, or the disappointment in the same eyes when she missed his birthday party for a meeting. She just saw her dreams.

But, when will she stop?

For the first time in three years, she slowed down and took a look at the things around her. The merry-go-round which she almost forgotten. The popcorn guy - ever so friendly. The clowns and their ridiculous make-ups. And then there’s always the balloon guy. She seemed to have forgotten how colorful life is, just like the balloons. When she looked back, she realized that in just three years, the colours in her life faded away.

"Sobs sobs"

She snapped back to the present. The little girl was crying and pointing to the sky. She looked up and saw a few balloons - purple, yellow, red - floating up and away like the colours in her life.

She smiled and walked towards the balloon guy.

“Can I have one purple, one yellow and one red please?”

She walked back towards the girl, and handed the balloons to the girl.

“There you go. It’s okay now.”

As she walked back to her car, she couldn’t stop smiling. She was glad she stopped by. She’ll never forget the joy in the laughter and the happiness in the eyes of the little girl today - something to remind her of herself. She’s a stronger woman now but sometimes she just needs to stop, take a breath and add a little more colour to her life.

*laughing at my own randomness - and not contented with the picture*

Aaahh.. Haven't felt so good for a long time..!!

A freaking tiring session of frisbee, french fries, frisbee again, shower all for myself (which means I can be inside as long as I want =P), and last but not least, hot chocolate (thanks Sanddy, the one you gave me was the last packet XD)!!

Feels so good.

Probably my happiest day here being alone (alone except for Hafidz's company of course ^_^).

I feel good. I'm not as emotional lately. I'm getting a grip. I have my dossier pretty much settled. So yea, I'm quite happy. =) Haven't seen such happy post in a long time huh. Me too. Kekekeke.

Just one thing. I just got my SOR today. (which is a good thing really cause I don't have to stay another day) I looked at my results for the past year and felt a lil disappointed. It was like improving steadily, even in Spring, until Fall this year, dropped like a bomb. Haigh. Calculus pulled my CGPA down so much.

BUT. No worries. I'll just have to work really hard next semester. *determined* It's gonna be hard, with extra Chem2 that I am applying to take (since UIUC requires Chem2), and Cal3 and Physics2 and Literature and Business. *still determined*

Yay. And I got Full Metal Alchemist to watch, thanks to Beng San. =)

How can I not be happy? XD


I found this in Facebook, Malaysian Ulty Players group. Nice!

I think I did something very wrong yesterday. *slaps self* Damn. Should have known better. Argh. Forget it.

So, right now I'm in Shah Alam. Again. Yea. Haha. Funny. =.= It's dreadful. It just feels so different being alone here than being alone at home. You can put me under house arrest for a week and I wouldn't mind. Being here, even for a day, it just brings all my spirits down. *smacks self* Heck. Where did that strong kickass girl I told myself I would be go to?

SO. I came back for Mully 08/09. And also some application business which is delaying my trip back home for a day or two. Which sucks once again.

Mully was an eye-opener definitely. I've never really been in a real match before. And it was raining on the first day of Mully. Oh well.

I think I managed to learn a little here and there. Especially on what I need to bring for the second round. =.= But I think I still suck. And yes, I'm totally not anywhere near confident. Heck I was nervous. I didn't know what to do.

So yeah. I'm a pretty dumb person.

Last week in Melaka, I was playing catch-throw with Jas, and after we finished, a group of youngsters came and started training for softball. Gee, I miss that game so much. I almost went up to the coaches and ask if I could join them. Then I remembered that I haven't touched the ball, the bat and the glove for almost two years, so I might just make a fool out of myself trying to pitch. XD Better not.

Also reminded me what a waste it was that I never really got the chance to really get into softball because we didn't have a coach. After my seniors left, (our coach left too) we were only left with whatever me and my friends learnt from them to guide the juniors. Our team went downhill. Sigh.

I wonder what happened to my sec school team. I have a feeling the frisbee team is more popular then the softball team already. LOL

Suddenly I remembered Christmas is coming. Thanks to the Christmas decorations I saw at Metrojaya Midvalley, even though there's still another one month plus to go. I love Christmas really. The decorations, the songs, the atmosphere, the stay-home movies on tv, the presents (that I don't get because I don't really celebrate it). But you know what I really hate? It's so freaking difficult to get someone to just go, hang out, and countdown with during Christmas eve and I'll get SO bored and just end up staying at home watching TV. And for those who know me well enough, you'll know I'll give anything to go out countdowning at some bar cafe, party, whatever instead of watching TV at home. Sigh.

Chinese New Year is so coming as well. I need money to buy new clothes! I think I'm gonna go work in December. Or I'm screwed!

Oh yea I just finished Survivor Micronesia yesterday (it's the 16th season, yea I don't follow Survivor) thanks to Hafidz, the Survivor addict (you need rehab seriously =P). I'm telling you Ozzy was like so ROMANTIC during the last tribal council. I heart Ozzy. Yay.

For tonight, I'm just gonna have to find something to entertain myself with.

It's dreadful. Really.

I think my posts are getting more and more random. I start talking nonsense in my blog already =P

Alrrriiiggghhttt, I've been procrastinating this post for a good few days now. I'm posting it TODAY.

Pretty much same old boring, even back at home. *rots away*

Oh yea, I came back to Melaka and got a surprise. *grins* The Eye on Malaysia is in Melaka. LOL I really didn't know that until I came back and saw the signboard on the road. Woo. Like, they actually brought the whole damn thing here. From KL. HAHAHA. I find it hilarious really. I mean, like what's the pointttt???

So right now I basically have nothing else to do, except watching tv, going online, and settling my university applications.

I feel much better at home. But I'm still going crazy. LOL *smacks self*

Oh before I run off, GOOD LUCK to everyone taking exams! SPM-ers, STPM-ers. *wish for it to end quickly so that I can have my friends back* =P

I'm going back! Yes I am!

Packing up my stuff right now. I didn't know my bags are so tiny! How come I can't fit everything in?! *frus* Tell me I'm a bimbo but everything I have here seem so important I have to bring them back! XD

Okay so I have to put aside some unnecessary stuff. =.=

Omgosh. I'm going back. It was pretty boring here. It will be pretty boring back home as well, with everyone having exams. Sigh.

I'm still pretty undecided about some stuff. But I guess I have to make a choice. I don't even know why I'm putting myself through this. =.=

Okay. Going back. Melaka here I come!








OMG WAIT.




Miaw Jyi. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH.


I don't have a phone to sms you!!!! You know I love you right??? Present on the way!!! XD

Okay, chiaoz! =)

My phone died.

Can you believe it? Only a year with me. Proves how gentle I actually am with it. GREAT. Now I'm almost all alone in Shah Alam, and my phone is dead. I feel so.... disconnected from the world! And the guy from the Sony Ericson shop told me I need to upgrade the software in the phone (??) and it will cost me 120 bucks and an hour.

Like I'm not broke enough. I have to spend another 120 bucks.

I think I'm just gonna fix it in Melaka.

And I'm going back on Saturday. Hmm..

Oh by the way, Quantum Of Solace was good. Yea, real good. How come I didn't watch Casino Royale? =.=

I don't know what to do today. Pack up my stuff, clear my table? Read some books, watch some episodes of whatever?

Oh gawd.

Today I met a friend. It seemed like ages ago since I last saw her. Despite everything she had to go through, she seemed so... cheerful. Perhaps not entirely cheerful but she sure looked better than I did. How did she manage to be so strong? It amazed me. I felt so small. I felt so messed up.

Haven't I been emotional enough these days?

Seeing her, I felt that I need to get up, splash a dozen of buckets of ice water on my face, and get my life back.

The problem is, I don't know how. I don't know where to start. I don't even know why it's so hard.

My friends asked me what's wrong. I don't even know how to explain it to them because I have no idea myself.

How did I end up in this mess?

*keeps in mind : I'm a freaking strong bimbo, I'll sail through.*
but how?

And that's me and CK!

I seriously had no idea what this mask represents until Miss Deela mentioned Charlie Chaplin. LOL.

Heroic? Dumbotic?

Miss Deela and I! I feel tall

Group photo!

Another group one, taken using a DSLR. (jealous)

Tell me we looked good. HAHA

Tell me that again. Yea we looked good right. =P

Next up, outing /Jiamun's birthday surprise. Although her birthday is in another less than a month. =P

Standard procedure: Make a wish..

Cut the cake...

Wait what's this? Wasabi? Cake? Wasabi+cake?

Flawless. Too bad for the unlucky one who got this piece. =P

I don't know why but I like this picture. XDXD

Awww.. aren't they like so cute?

Princesses and bodyguards. XD

Okay. So tired uploading and rearranging photos. And I'm starting to feel bored. *zzz*

Waiting. For what? I don't know.

And to Jian Wei, I saw your comment, thanks, it really made my day. You always make my day. LOL thanks for reminding me I'm a strong bimbo. XD

HOLIDAYS!

Movies!
Frisbee!
Uni Applications!
Sleep!
boredom!
Yay!

More updates soon! (when I have da mood =P)